Missy asked if she could go on "webkinz" after finishing school today. The words, "Saturday is a day off..." were barely out of my mouth when both jumped out of my bed (where we had been warmly snuggling) and ran out of the room. After feeding them both an incredibly healthy breakfast of doughnuts and chocolate milk, I haven't seen them. Their voices sound like they are reasonably entertained by the game they are playing together and no one has gotten angry or hurt yet. All is good.
Hubby had to work this morning. So when I groggily rolled over in bed earlier his side was already deserted. I had been up around 1 am with heartburn so I was completely dead to the world when he left. Aww the joys of pregnancy. That wonderful energy I felt last month has seemed to dwindle over the last few days and I'm not really that hungry anymore. Pretty amazing for someone who fantasized about food for the last 4 months!
So as I lay awake in bed last night, listening to the dog snore, my eyes fell on the bassinet that has been in our bedroom since I found it at a resale shop. I reached over with my foot and gave it a little nudge, making it rock a bit and thinking of when I'll look over a see a tiny person inside it. I thought about how God knows all the days that this baby will live. I felt tears welling up in my eyes as I remembered back to August when I was pregnant and didn't even know it. I thought about the joy this gift of pregnancy has brought to me. I didn't even know I wanted to experience this again, but it really has been a gift.
Even now the joy in my heart swells to bursting to think that my Heavenly Father planned this wonderful surprise for me. Did He watch me when I had no clue with a twinkle in His eternal eyes? Did He smile in anticipation of the leaps my heart would make when I heard the baby's heart beating and felt tiny arms and legs fluttering inside me? How can I understand a love that big? For me. Every good and perfect gift is from Him. Why would He love me so? That is unfathomable, but I'm so grateful that He does.